today

I have no idea what to write about today but I feel like I need to type something.

I have a lot of stuff going on at work. There are tons of meetings and stress trying to get everything planned about to be smooth for the rest of the year. I know there are 4 months left but it is really not a lot of time . There is so much left to cover and some of it I have not had to teach in the past. I was really successful last year and so this year I want to teach them more also there were standards added that were not there last year.

Lotte has also decided that sleeping is overrated. The last two night we have been up at 1, 3 and 5. This makes me really tired and a bit cranky. I am trying to hard not to be short with the boys but it does not always work. I want to be the best mom I can be when I am at home. I want to present when I am home and present when I am at school. I spend a lot of time the last two years working in the evenings but this year I am not, just not doing it. I think I have only graded at home twice this year.

Anyway that is what is on my mind today.

sleep happens

but not at our house this weekend.

It started when Lotte came down with the flu on Friday, Sat I felt awful, Sat night about 10 Stu started throwing up I finally got him cleaned up and back to sleep and Chris started.

I am so tired that I have no patience today. I think I will head off to bed.

life

Day to day life often feels boring. We do the same things every day and then the same thing every week. But every hour is full of new adventures.

It is strange to feel so busy and yet be bored with the same things.

I need to get out more. I have not had a date night since before Lotte was born. The only time we have been out without the kids was to buy Christmas presents. We spend every week running between practice, school, work, meets and in between we need to cook meals and clean the house.

I think I need to find a plan or way to make a change.

tomorrow

Lotte turns one. I can’t believe she has been here for a whole year. I am so in love with her it is unreal. I knew after having three kids that the love grows but I was worried that with a girl it might be different. Her brothers are so cute with her. They are so crazy about her. The other morning she woke  up early, Sean heard her and went in her room and got her out of bed. He decided that I needed more sleep and and took Lotte to his room to play with her. Soon Sam was awake too and they played with their sister for two hours while I slept in. How sweet is that?

With all the troubles we have has this year, it has been amazing to finally have my family complete. We are all here under one roof and that is how I would like to keep it for a long time.

best Christmas ever

We had a wonderful Christmas. I do not always feel way this, lots of Christmas’ are hard for me. I am not sure why but it really stresses me out. I want my kids to enjoy the magic and love the whole holiday. Many years it gets crazy and so busy. This year was so mellow and the boys got great stuff. The stuff under the tree at our house was not too out-shined by the stuff from Mickey and Lori. They got everything they wanted their list and seemed so happy. It was Lotte’s first Christmas and I was reminded that we have a lot of years of the magic left.

crazy year

So I did not go back to see the last time I posted. I know it has been awhile.

On October 31 Ryder died. It was heart breaking. And freeing at the same time.

A lot of the stress of knowing he was sick and not knowing what would happen are gone. We no longer have to deal with his mom and the evil things she does. Kyle can move on.

We have made it through the bankruptcy. We are still waiting for the townhouse to sell and so we are still paying for the HOA which sucks and is using a lot of our money, but that has to end eventually.

This was the last thing in a long line of a crazy year. I hope that 2012 is much happier.

Lotte has been an amazing blessing, we are living in a place I love and finally feels like a home. Most of our debt is now taken care of.

It is going to be okay. 2012 is going to be an amazing year.

saving the day

Yesterday I got a call right before school started from Sean’s school. He had forgotten his homework and pencil box at home and wanted to know if I could bring it to him, of course I had a class and I could not go.  I was taking the call in the workroom and I felt awful because I could not leave school to get his stuff for him. One of my coworkers overheard the conversation and offered to run to my house and bail Sean out. The big issue with this is this lady is really annoying, she drives me crazy. She really wants to be my bff and I can’t stand her. She and I team teach together so she is in my classroom everyday and controlling her is often harder than controlling the kids.  I have also spent time with her outside of school and she is just strange. So what do I do? I do what is best for Sean and I send her to my house. Now I have to reset the lines with her and that could take awhile but I can do that if it means that Sean is good.

and it begins

So the school year has started and in true fashion it was an eventful morning.

I had my mental time table off so I got the boys up a little late and so we had to rush getting ready. Sean and I walked Stu and Sam to the bus. We got to the bus stop and realized that Sam had forgotten his paper work. So I got them on the bus and went back home to get the paperwork to take it to the school. It ended up taking 20 minutes to drop off one folder because I kept running into people who wanted/ needed to talk to me. I got back home and I still had to pump before school so I started to pump and I sent Sean to the bus stop. I finished and ran out the door because now my school starts in 20 minutes. As I drove by the bus stop Sean was still at the bus stop. I figured the bus was running late but I spent the whole day worried about Sean and if he got to school.

My dad went fine. I met my new kids and started another school day.

I picked Sean up and he told me about his insane day. The bus was 20 minutes early so Sean missed the the bus because the bus left without his. Once he realized that it was getting late he had started to walk to school. Half way there a neighbor picked him up and took him the rest of the way. Now he was late for the first day and he raced to his locker when he got there he found a note that said this locker is not available please see guidance.  He went to guidance to get a new locker and so he went to the new locker it had another persons things in it. So back to guidance again they had him leave his things in the office and go to class. Half way through the day he finally got a locker and things started to smooth out.

He did come home saying he likes middle school so that is a good thing.

first day

Tomorrow is the first day of school.  Sean starts middle school, Sam goes to a new school for fifth grade, and Stu starts kindergarten. It is an exciting day. Tomorrow I meet a whole new group of students and I start a whole new year. I am looking forward to it and not at the same time. I love being able to start over and fix things I did wrong the year before. I get sad because the kids I got to know last year have moved on and won’t be in my room any more.

I have a lot of challenges this year. I have two team taught classes, meaning I am teaching with a special ed teacher and I have several special ed kids in my classes. The kids are not the challenge I can handle the kids. The team teacher is the area of growth. She is as sped as the kids and we have taught together before and it was tough. We will see how it goes this year and how it will end up. As long as I stay true to who I am it should all work out, right?

I also have three THREE mentees. There is a mentor program at our school for new teachers and this year I was given three teachers to help. They all have their own needs as well so they are taking a lot of my time. I ended up going in on Saturday to work by myself so I could actually get stuff done.

I am really excited to be doing new things that are exciting and that not everyone is asked to do but it may be a long year.

Tomorrow is the first day.

it went fine

The court hearing was so anti-climatic. It took about 15 minutes to see the judge.  Chris and I got done and we were even more stressed. It does not feel finished and really it is not we now wait 10 weeks to get the paperwork and we still have to wait for the townhouse to sell before that part is done.

I did not sleep much better last night but it was a bit easier. Today we are off to the grocery store and then to the pool I hope.

One more week before I head back to school. Next week we are full of appointments and the start of my school year. I have been asked to mentor a new teacher, there is still a possibility that I will not be able to because I have not been at my school for 3 years but there may be a loophole for me to be able to be a mentor. I am really excited for this opportunity this is my next step for being a teacher who teaches teachers. I hope some day to be able to be a cooperating teacher. I want to teach my students as well as new teachers.